Day 26 and I could cross the finish line of my #50tunesfor50years venture with nothing but Bowie. Sound & Vision, Low, Hunky Dory, Young Americans, Station To Station, The Next Day, Blackstar – each masterpieces that hourly rotate at the top of my favourite Bowie albums. Ask me to choose one track and I would be equally reticent to declare, feeling a sense of unfaithfulness as I attempted to choose one over the other. How can one choose when each comes with an accompanying a memory, a mood, a moment I’d find hard to be without.
When I woke to the headlines that morning in January 2016 I was struck with an immense sense of disbelief, dumb at the idea that man who had so much more to enlighten me with was no more, never to create again. I had only begun to shield my eyes from the shining Blackstar and then in a moment, he was gone. And for a reason only known to some distant first encounter with David I wanted only one thing in that moment. An ice-cold glass of milk. And a day of sorrow. And as the day past and I found myself asking where the fuck did Monday go I kept returning to the Cracked Actor, to the man who fell to earth and brought me sweet, sweet things alongside sorrow.
There will be more Bowie in this #50tunesfor50days. I can’t not. But the choice, like the man, will change over and over in my mind. Because for in Bowie this Asperger’s lass had a kindred spirit, an ever-changing, even overthinking, wonder who, no matter what he created, continuously confirmed that it was okay to be a kook, a geek, a freak, even a scary monster. He was and will always be the diamond dog that made this 50-year-old life shine. Laughing gnome and all.
Join Wildblood as she celebrates 50 years of being, well, Wildblood at 1BTN International Women’s Day Takeover on the 8th March 1BTN 101.4FM DAB+ and online 1btn.fm, the 1BTN IWD Soundsystem (fundraising for Threshold and The Girls Network) and Patterns with Honey Dijon on 9th March at Patterns, Brighton and at Queer Songbook & Traumfrau’s IWD Mixtape on 18th March at The Spire, Brighton. Like Wildblood and Queenie on Facebook for more info.
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